Call me crazy or a fool - whatever you wish but God has spoken to me loud and clear over the past couple of days. Yes, I was seeking Him quite diligently. Then, using an older gentleman, a dying grandmother, a church sermon,and a discerning friend He spoke. What did God say?
I wish I could write out the whole story but that would be a lot of reading! In a "nut shell", He said that I have allowed my fears to hold me back long enough and it is time to MOVE. He said that I don't need to be afraid of how things will work out or when but I just need to put one foot in front of the other and He will take care of the rest. He said that I can get to Uganda and still be with and love my family. In fact, it is part of my responsibility to do so. So, for now, I am going back to stay with my family.
I had been telling myself from the time I moved back to Indiana that there is no way that I will be able to make it to the mission field from here (my home). I was limiting God and His power. There are still lots of questions, some things "up in the air" in relation to my place of ministry and responsibilities there and there are many things I need to learn or grow in before I go. However, I know I am going with Every Child Ministries to Uganda, Africa. I do not know how all the "mechanics" will work out and I don't need to. I do know that my God is BIG! He is active and moving in the lives of His people today!
I would ask that you would pray this for me at this time. It is from
II Thessalonians 1:11-12 "...that our God would count you worthy of this calling, and fulfill all the good pleasure of His goodness, and the work of faith with power. That the name of our Lord Jesus Christ may be glorified in you, and you in Him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ."
Monday, September 20, 2010
Thursday, September 2, 2010
God Can Work With Messes
What I would like to be able to report is that in the past 3 months I have made significant achievements and had great success with my desire to go to Uganda. However, that would be far from the truth. What I can tell you is that I have come to realize that my personal preparation is going to take longer than I had hoped.
This summer has been one of the most difficult times of my life. Things around me seem to have gone from bad to worse. I began struggling with anxiety and depression. My Grandmother is near death, my Parent's health is declining. The good news is that all of this has kept me on my knees in prayer and helped me realize that I cannot make it without the continual help of my Heavenly Father. Several people have told me that this is normal for someone preparing to make such a huge life change. I have not only made a huge change already, moving from N.C. to Indiana but I am planning on another even greater move (to Africa) - so I had better make sure I am ready!
Some other good news is that the Lord has brought some kind and caring people to help support me physically, spiritually and emotionally here while I learn how to live in this messy life I call mine. While I do not understand everything that is happening, nor do I know what I will be doing next week let alone next month or next year, I do still firmly believe that God has a plan for me that includes ministering to orphans in Uganda in the not-to-distant future. He continues to affirm that to me in a variety of ways...through many people, His Word and the circumstances around me. This "messy" season of my life is much-needed learning and preparation time for life in Africa. Things there will be far from "ideal" and I want to be the most effective servant that I can be to do God's work for His kingdom.
For now though, I will ask for continued patience and a lot of prayer as I try and find balance in loving and caring for those around me here and now while at the same time preparing to love those whom God will lead me to in the future.
I want to Thank all of you that are supporting my calling to go and minister and care for the children of Uganda. I am so excited to go, but I must be patient and wait on God's perfect timing as He molds me into a vessel which can be used in mighty ways.
As you continue to pray, please pray for:
My Parent's health and for a loving caregiver
Mental and Emotional Restoration for me
Restoration of my computer...It's also having issues!
Financial Provision as I remain in the States (Health Insurance: Blue Cross $300 per/month)
Financial Support for the Mission Field (I have approximately 30% of my start up, as well as 20% of my monthly support)
Answers to prayer:
Godly women who are praying with me on a regular basis
A family to stay with who are supporting me with housing and food
Access to Internet and cell phone
Loving support of family and friends
The patience and understanding of Every Child Ministries as I am going through these struggles
This summer has been one of the most difficult times of my life. Things around me seem to have gone from bad to worse. I began struggling with anxiety and depression. My Grandmother is near death, my Parent's health is declining. The good news is that all of this has kept me on my knees in prayer and helped me realize that I cannot make it without the continual help of my Heavenly Father. Several people have told me that this is normal for someone preparing to make such a huge life change. I have not only made a huge change already, moving from N.C. to Indiana but I am planning on another even greater move (to Africa) - so I had better make sure I am ready!
Some other good news is that the Lord has brought some kind and caring people to help support me physically, spiritually and emotionally here while I learn how to live in this messy life I call mine. While I do not understand everything that is happening, nor do I know what I will be doing next week let alone next month or next year, I do still firmly believe that God has a plan for me that includes ministering to orphans in Uganda in the not-to-distant future. He continues to affirm that to me in a variety of ways...through many people, His Word and the circumstances around me. This "messy" season of my life is much-needed learning and preparation time for life in Africa. Things there will be far from "ideal" and I want to be the most effective servant that I can be to do God's work for His kingdom.
For now though, I will ask for continued patience and a lot of prayer as I try and find balance in loving and caring for those around me here and now while at the same time preparing to love those whom God will lead me to in the future.
I want to Thank all of you that are supporting my calling to go and minister and care for the children of Uganda. I am so excited to go, but I must be patient and wait on God's perfect timing as He molds me into a vessel which can be used in mighty ways.
As you continue to pray, please pray for:
My Parent's health and for a loving caregiver
Mental and Emotional Restoration for me
Restoration of my computer...It's also having issues!
Financial Provision as I remain in the States (Health Insurance: Blue Cross $300 per/month)
Financial Support for the Mission Field (I have approximately 30% of my start up, as well as 20% of my monthly support)
Answers to prayer:
Godly women who are praying with me on a regular basis
A family to stay with who are supporting me with housing and food
Access to Internet and cell phone
Loving support of family and friends
The patience and understanding of Every Child Ministries as I am going through these struggles
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