Thursday, June 17, 2010

First a Blur and then Reality Hits

Please accept my apologies for taking so long to get a new up-date out. My last month in N.C. was pretty much a blur of preparing to move and saying good-byes. Good-byes are never easy for me and I kept wanting to drag them out...."let's get together just one more time" came out of my mouth on several occasions. So, I wonder why they are called "good" byes??? I had a wonderful "send-off" from my Single's Group. I will never forget the love and support I have gotten from the Singles at RCCC. It hasn't stopped since the move either. They are awesome! I spent my final week in N.C. with the girls I have been a nanny to for the past 8 years. It was a great week! The girls gave me lots of good memories to keep with me. I tried to make it seem as though I wasn't leaving at the end of the week, for my sake as well as theirs, but we all knew the reality. They have been like family to me. To say I miss them would be an understatement.





Both of my sisters and my brother-in-law made the trek out to N.C. to retrieve me, my car, and the few belongings that I chose to keep. They are a great blessing to me! (my family, not my belongings) :o) My sister that is closest to me in age rode back in my car with me. We took turns driving and it worked out great. I also enjoyed the conversation and "sisterly bonding" time. :o)





Now I am back in Indiana. Honestly, I am still having difficulty with the adjustment. Leaving all that was familiar in my every day life, my church family, my "nannying" family, and many others whom my heart has become attached to and then moving back to my tiny hometown and living with my parents again is "different". Don't misunderstand, I am beyond thankful to be able to spend this time with my mom and dad and other family members. Plus seeing friends from schooldays is always good. However, I am learning how to live without depending on a job, computer, cell phone, etc. God is teaching me many valuable lessons that I am sure I will need on the mission field but it is not easy. What I thought I was ready for I now know I am not. So, while God "prunes" me and "refines" my heart I will wait. I have all confidence that, in the end, it will be more than worth it!