God Can Work With Messes

What I would like to be able to report is that in the past 3 months I have made significant achievements and had great success with my desire to go to Uganda. However, that would be far from the truth. What I can tell you is that I have come to realize that my personal preparation is going to take longer than I had hoped.

This summer has been one of the most difficult times of my life. Things around me seem to have gone from bad to worse. I began struggling with anxiety and depression. My Grandmother is near death, my Parent's health is declining. The good news is that all of this has kept me on my knees in prayer and helped me realize that I cannot make it without the continual help of my Heavenly Father. Several people have told me that this is normal for someone preparing to make such a huge life change. I have not only made a huge change already, moving from N.C. to Indiana but I am planning on another even greater move (to Africa) - so I had better make sure I am ready!

Some other good news is that the Lord has brought some kind and caring people to help support me physically, spiritually and emotionally here while I learn how to live in this messy life I call mine. While I do not understand everything that is happening, nor do I know what I will be doing next week let alone next month or next year, I do still firmly believe that God has a plan for me that includes ministering to orphans in Uganda in the not-to-distant future. He continues to affirm that to me in a variety of ways...through many people, His Word and the circumstances around me. This "messy" season of my life is much-needed learning and preparation time for life in Africa. Things there will be far from "ideal" and I want to be the most effective servant that I can be to do God's work for His kingdom.

For now though, I will ask for continued patience and a lot of prayer as I try and find balance in loving and caring for those around me here and now while at the same time preparing to love those whom God will lead me to in the future.

I want to Thank all of you that are supporting my calling to go and minister and care for the children of Uganda. I am so excited to go, but I must be patient and wait on God's perfect timing as He molds me into a vessel which can be used in mighty ways.

As you continue to pray, please pray for:
My Parent's health and for a loving caregiver
Mental and Emotional Restoration for me
Restoration of my computer...It's also having issues!
Financial Provision as I remain in the States (Health Insurance: Blue Cross $300 per/month)
Financial Support for the Mission Field (I have approximately 30% of my start up, as well as 20% of my monthly support)

Answers to prayer:
Godly women who are praying with me on a regular basis
A family to stay with who are supporting me with housing and food
Access to Internet and cell phone
Loving support of family and friends
The patience and understanding of Every Child Ministries as I am going through these struggles